A New Chapter Begins

April 27. Another chapter begins.

At 25, I pretty much know what I want in life. I also know my strengths as well as my weaknesses. My assets and my flaws. I know what I can do and cannot do. I know when I'm just giving up and feeling lazy. I know when I can push it.

Lately, I've been praying a lot to God. Asking Him to give me the strength to do what must be done. To avoid temptations. Generally, I ask Him to guide me in my thoughts, words, and actions.

But in the end, it's all up to me. My free will. I can pray as much as I want. In fact, I can also not pray at all. But I choose to - because I hear His voice better when I do.

Today marks the beginning of a new me. I'm turning to this blog, and not in my LJ, to document my developments on the new me. The new me that is capable of accomplishing adult tasks. The one who's no longer a kid. The one who can fight off sleep or brain drain - simply because I need to get the job done. The one who can just do what must be done and not put off to tomorrow what can be done today.

I am this determined to just push myself further. To actually accomplish what is in my head. It's not enough to just dream it. Yes, I am doing it, but I know I can do more. And by doing more, there is a price to pay. There are no short cuts.

"Lahat pinaghihirapan," as how my mother puts it.

So as I write this - these are the things I have to do.
- Finish 20 articles
- Fold the clothes
- Pack (Man, I'm leaving in 24 hours and I'm not even packed.)
- Withdraw
- Last minute grocery shopping
- Parlor
- Start reading Dr. Zhivago
- Watch "Pushing Daisies"
- Write what I can from the 27 articles that are pending or write the 10 articles that will be sent. Depends which one comes first.
- Watch "Ally McBeal"
- Last minute laundry

And of course, major overhaul. I can do this.

God, I need Your help. I know I can. Be my voice to do what must be done.