Tarot in the Morning

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The card at the top left represents how you see yourself. The High Priestess, when reversed: Being confused and led astray from the true path. Spiritual deception. Overzealous and shallow-minded pursuit of the esoteric. Insecurity, conceit and self-destructiveness. The forces of nature unleashed.

The card at the top right represents how you see your partner. The Tower, when reversed: Unexpected upheaval leading to a positive change in life. Catastrophe survived or narrowly avoided. A new lifestyle and enlightenment. May indicate a broken relationship, divorce, or failure in business or career.

The card in the center left represents how you feel about your partner. The World, when reversed: Incompleteness and shoddy design. A great work betrayed. Insecurity, fear of change, and the failure to reach goals. Regret and disappointment.

The card in the center right represents what stands between you and your partner. The Hermit: Withdrawal from events and relationship to introspect and gather strength. Seeking the inner voice or calling upon vision from within. A need of understanding and advice, or a wise man who will offer knowing guidance. Personal experience and thoughtful temperance.

The card in the lower left represents how your partner sees you. Justice, when reversed: Lack of balance, harmony and integrity. The suspension of action until a decision is made. Lawsuits and prosecutions. Unjust decisions and the consequences of those decisions. A turn for the worse in legal matters.

The card in the lower right represents what your partner feels about you. The Chariot, when reversed: Ineffective use of force. Might turned against the weak or the righteous. Senseless violence and warmongering. Lack of discipline and poor direction fan the flames of a situation already out of control. Advance without consideration of the consequences for others.

The card in the center represents the present status or challenge of the relationship. Queen of Wands: The essence of fire behaving as water, such as a rainbow: The natural embodiment of passion and sensuality, who is always the center of attention. One who reflects the desires and ambitions of others, and ignites them. A radiantly vital person, cocky and charismatic, who sees what she wants and goes after it.


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The Creative Process spread is designed specifically to peer into the nature of a project or creative undertaking, and shine a spotlight on the evolution of its parts. The International Icon Tarot renders traditional occult symbolism in Swiss iconography. It is a humorous and direct approach to divination, and one of our favorite new decks. If you would like your own copy of the International Icon Tarot, you can buy it now!

The card in the middle represents the creative force behind the project, be it a person, organization, or other entity. Queen of Cups, when reversed: The dark essence of water, such as a deep and foreboding lake: Discomfort with the worlds of mind and matter, leading to a retreat to the spiritual. The embrace of negative relationships, driven by the desperate fear of being alone. Devotion to fantasies and daydreams, to the exclusion of practical skills or the pursuit of knowledge. Insecurity leading to dishonor, vice, and undue susceptibility to outside influences.

The card on the top represents imagination - the prophetic image that stems from the creative force of the previous card to initiate the project. This is the poetry or voice of the undertaking. Five of Pentacles (Worry), when reversed: Concern over finance leads to prudent action. Impending physical threat is met with calm and skill. Suffering and loneliness leads to spiritual growth. Stress is met without resorting to excess or the pursuit of oblivion.

The card on the left represents emotion - the feelings aroused by or surrounding the ideation of the project that takes place in the previous card. This is the music or scent of the undertaking. Nine of Cups (Happiness): Contentment and satisfaction in romance, friendship, or other relationships. Achieving your deepest desires and savoring beauty and sensual pleasures. A state of joy and abundance radiating fulfillment and bliss.

The card on the bottom represents thought - the analytical process of organizing the project and capturing the emotional content of the previous card. This is the science or vision of the undertaking. Justice: The achievement of balance and inner harmony after a great trial. Agreements, contracts, or treaties concluded justly. Things set to rights. Karma restored. A turn for the better in legal matters.

The card on the right represents manifestation - the real work involved in completing the project, and the form it will take upon culmination. This is the painting or touch of the undertaking. The Tower: Unforeseen catastrophe. An abrupt change, perhaps leading to a new lifestyle and enlightenment. May indicate a broken relationship, divorce, or failure in business or career.

Window of Opportunity

Carlos is my husband of 32 years.

He was diagnosed with Prostate cancer; it was removed and was
contained. He was sent home to recover and four days later he
had some complications.

He saw the primary care doctor and was sent to the ER at
Rockdale Hospital. Multiple blood clots were found in his
lungs. The next day he was life-flighted to Piedmont Hospital
where he was taken into the OR immediately because the right
atrium of his heart was found to have a large amount of
clotting.

I was told he might not make it to the hospital but he was
operated on. When the surgeons opened him up, they found that
he was being kept alive by blood being allowed to flow thru a
small open window between the two chambers of his heart.

It is called the Foramen Ovule.
A miracle had occurred allowing him to stay alive.

The miracle was this:
The little window is open when we are inside our mother's womb
to allow the blood to flow freely through the chambers of the
heart. We, of course, don't need the full heart function of
blood flow at that time because we are getting oxygen from the
umbilical cord in the womb. The doctors were amazed and said it
was a miracle because this little window closes up and seals
itself shut the moment we take our first breath of air.

It remains shut our entire life. Carlos' had been closed for 60
years. God opened it and allowed him to live. Only hours
earlier I was on the phone with him crying, saying he didn't
want it to end this way. He wanted to be able to take care of
his family. I told him I would pray for him and he began
repeating the prayer with me. I told him I would pray and it
dawned on me he wanted to pray. So I asked him if he wanted me
to pray the prayer of salvation with him and he said, "Yes."

He repeated it with me and was saved. See Carlos opened his
heart to Jesus and Jesus opened the window in Carlos' heart,
saving his life.

Jesus Take the Wheel

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh

One-liners

"The day will get better."

- It did.

"Reinvent."

= Now I know why Madonna does it.

"The Emperor's New Clothes."

- We need that once-in-a-while

Soul

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are quite expressive and thoughtful. You see the world in a way that others are blind to. You are not a very grounded person. You prefer dreams to reality. For you, it's all about possibilities. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. Your near future is calm, relaxing, and pretty much what you want. And it's something you've been anticipating for a while now. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

Interview with God

With my newly acquired title as a journalist, I decided to strike a high note.

"Come in," God said to me, "so, you would like to interview Me?"

"If you have the time," I said.

He smiled through His beard and said: "My time is called eternity and is enough to do everything; what questions do you have in mind to ask me?"

"None that are new to you. What's the one thing that surprises you most about mankind?"

He answered: "That they get bored of being children, are in a rush to grow up, and then long to be children again.

That they lose their health to make money and then lose their money to restore their health.

That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live neither for the present nor the future.

That they live as if they will never die, and they die as if they never had never lived..."

His hands took mine and we were silent. After a long period, I said, "May I ask you another question?"

He replied with a smile.

"As a Father, what would you ask your children to do for the new year?"

"To learn that they cannot make anyone love them. What they can do is to let themselves be loved.

To learn that it takes years to build trust, and a few seconds to destroy it.

To learn that what is most valuable is not what they have in their lives, but who they have in their lives.

To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others. There will be others better or worse than they are.

To learn that a rich person is not one who has the most, but is one who needs the least.

To learn that they should control their attitudes, otherwise their attitudes will control them.

To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in persons we love, and that it takes many years to
heal them.

To learn to forgive by practising forgiveness.

To learn that there are persons that love them dearly, but simply do not know how to show their feelings.

To learn that money can buy everything but happiness.

To learn that while at times they may be entitled to be upset, that does not give them the right to upset those around them.

To learn that great dreams do not require great wings, but a landing gear to achieve.

To learn that true friends are scarce, he/she who has found one has found a true treasure.

To learn that it is not always enough that they be forgiven by others, but that they forgive themselves.

To learn that they are masters of what they keep to themselves and slaves of what they say.

To learn that they shall reap what they plant; if they plant gossip they will harvest intrigues, if they plant love they will harvest happiness.

To learn that true happiness is not to achieve their goals but to learn to be satisfied with what they already
achieved.

To learn that happiness is a decision. They decide to be happy with what they are and have, or die from envy and
jealousy of what they lack.

To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different.

To learn that those who are honest with themselves without considering the consequences go far in life.

To learn that even though they may think they have nothing to give, when a friend cries with them, they find the strength to appease the pain.

To learn that by trying to hold on to love ones, they very quickly push them away; and by letting go of those they love, they will be side by side forever.

To learn that even though the word "love" has many different meanings, it loses value when it is overstated.

To learn that they can never do something extraordinary for Me to love them; I simply do.

To learn that the shortest distance they could be from Me is the distance of a prayer."

Old Habits Die Hard, New Habits Die Easy

Very true.

Must discipline myself to get back into shape. Allot an hour to two hours each day if I could. If you think about it realistically, I could. It's just that I haven't been managing my time lately.

Well, every week is progress.

Just like on America's Next Top Model. If you don't do better than how you did the week before, you can get eliminated. My outlook on life - on all aspects should be like that.

So last night we watched Loverboy on Star Movies. I'm afraid I might be that clingy and attached to my kid when I do have one.

I love Marisa Tomei's direction when it comes to choosing her roles. She's an A-Lister in her own right. Kyra Sedgwick needs more recognition but she is a marvelous actress. As for Sandra Bullock in this movie, that was a surprise. It was like a cameo - a special participation.

The night ended channel surfing, from AXN's House to HBO's Spider-Man 2. See? I think I can multi-task.

It's really all about time management and discipline. Funny that I always say it but I never get around doing it.

Every minute counts and sometimes we don't have to rush.

Sometimes we have to ask God for His help and His guidance.

Wait, lemme look for the Interview with God online and post the words here. That sure made my morning.

Top 5

top five "dream" jobs:
o1. Actress
o2. Writer
o3. Director
o4. Producer
o5. Casting Director

top five films I (love to) watch over and over again:
o1. The Phantom of the Opera
o2. Before Sunrise
o3. Frida
o4. Jude
o5. Before Sunset

top five songs I can listen to again and again:
o1. Tonight and the Rest of My Life by Nina Gordon
o2. Tear In Your Hand by Tori Amos
o3. I Wanna Dance with Somebody by Whitney
Houston
o4. Sweet Surrender by Sarah McLachlan
o5. Breathless by The Corrs

top five reasons to watch television:
as of June 2006
o1. Nip/Tuck
o2. Desperate Housewives
o3. Drawn Together
o4. The Simpsons
o5. Intimate Portrait

top five places i'd want to visit by the age of
thirty-
five:
o1. Ireland
o2. Greece
o3. Palawan
o4. France, specifically during Cannes Film Festival
o5. New Zealand

top five obsessions:
o1. blog
o2. online quizzes
o3. plays
o4. movies
o5. Diego Luna!

top five beverages:
o1. C2 lemon
o2. Vodka Cruiser
o3. Milkshake
o4. Green tea
o5. Seattle's Best's Javanilla

top five favorite past time:
o1. Channel Surfing
o2. Web surfing
o3. Soundtrippin'
o4. Pampering and primping
o5. Reading

Patience

Two auditions this Saturday.
For a short film and Tanghalang Pilipino.
I'm not going.

Something inside me is telling me that I need to slow things down.
I've been rushing so much, always thinking that I will not get an opportunity.
I will.

I just have to be really patient.

I wish he's okay

Dreamt of my eldest brother last night.
Wish he's okay.
I miss him so much.

Addicting!

You Are a Fierce Femme

You have a wild side, and you aren't afraid to bring it out when the time is right. But you also know when to hang back and keep your "crazy chick" persona in check. In fact, some of your friends may be surprised to find out how far you can take it... You may look mild mannered, but it's all an act!

How Daring Are You?

When will they play this here?

SALMA HAYEK on 'ASK THE DUST'
Contributed by Michael J. Lee, Executive Editor
for Radio Free Entertainment
March 1, 2006

Set in Depression-era Los Angeles, the period drama Ask the Dust tells the story of a writer (Colin Farrell) who, despite the social taboos of the time, finds his life's muse in a Mexican beauty (Salma Hayek) and becomes involved with her. The film is written and directed by Robert Towne, and based on the novel by John Fante.

In this interview, Salma talks about working with Farrell and Towne, shooting nude scenes in freezing water, and forming an unusually strong emotional attachment to her character Camilla. (In fact, she gets teary-eyed by simply recounting Camilla's story for this Q&A.)

The Interview

MEDIA: Robert approached you for this role some time ago, yes?

SALMA: He gave me this script eight years ago, and I did not understand the character. And I thought she was an awful human being, and racist...I just did not have the vision to see the subtleties of the character. And then eight years later, I read...that script and I thought, "Oh my God, what a fantastic opportunity. What a great character."

How did your character of Camilla in the movie differ from the Camilla in the book?

I did not read the book on purpose, because Robert developed the character...I think it's different than in the book, and there is more of it in the movie than there is in the book. My character was more developed in the script, so I talked to Robert. I said, "I'm not going to read [the book]. I'm going to read it when the movie's over." And then I became so close to this character that when we finished the film, Colin gave me, as a wrap present, a first edition of the book. So I started to read it on the plane, and I was sobbing. And then I put it away. I got home like a week or two later. I couldn't read the book because I missed her so much. I put the book away and I said, "I'll wait and I'll read it when I'm not so close to this character."

Do you become this attached to all your roles?

No.

What made Camilla so special to you?

I think what happened was that my inspiration for this character was...I thought of all the women in the history of the earth that inspired a man--that in some way touched the life of a man. And maybe the man didn't notice until they were not together anymore. I thought of all the women that inspire great artists. Even if it was just someone's first girlfriend, and later on in life, you still remember that first kiss, [and] that person makes you who you are as a man later, and they will never know it. And I thought of Camilla. [pauses to wipe her eyes] I thought of this woman who thought [she] did everything wrong in her life, and she never accomplished anything, and she dies thinking that. And yet she inspired this fabulous book. So I would keep thinking of her. And I wish I could go back and tell her, but I can't, you know? [laughs] Because it's almost like after she's dead is when it really got even worse to me. She had such a great spirit, but there were so little expectations--because that's all she could afford to expect in life--that she almost dies happy. There's a lot about the character. It doesn't always happen, but there are some characters you really create a relationship with, almost as if they were your friend. And you never get into their heads again or think like them. They're gone.

What was your experience of working with Colin Farrell like?

I was a little bit worried about working with Colin. I was like, "I'm going to have to set him straight!" [But he was] never a problem. Always on time, always showed up--but always showed up passionate about the job, passionate about work, eager in the rehearsals. That is very usual. [laughs] I shouldn't be saying this, but that is very unusual. This guy was so thirsty for the process. I think he didn't have a lot of training, so for him to have the opportunity to have a rehearsal...He loved it. He was so there. And that was my favorite thing. He was always participating in the process seriously. Very respectful of the work.

Robert has described you both as "volatile actors." What do you think he meant by that?

Well, it was a very, very good combination. We worked really well together because we are both very creative, but we really trusted each other and we were very respectful of each other. So I think probably what Robert is referring to is that we rehearsed a lot, which was a new thing for me. We rehearsed for months. And every time we would rehearse, he'd take new things and rewrite and do things. And we had a lot of freedom to play around, to improvise, so when we got to the set, we were very well in tune. So sometimes I would surprise him and throw something at him that was never rehearsed and never planned. And he would brilliantly just catch it and throw it back at me in a way I never expected...It was so exciting to work with an actor like that.

Did you do anything special to prepare for the nude scenes?

I gained weight for that!

Really?

They had a good hamburger place. I ate. I thought the character should be 1930s, but Mexican...I thought she should be a little bit "meaty"...I actually put a lot of weight on, and I actually haven't been able to lose all of it. [laughs] But you know what? Once I got naked with all that weight on, I said, "It's okay." So I sort of stayed up since then.

How physically grueling was your scene in the ocean?

Oh, Robert didn't tell you? It was freezing! Freezing, unbearable, cold. And I got a little bit of hypothermia. They were really careful. We had to take special drinks that would keep our body heated. I mean, we had to prepare physically to do the scene because it was so cold.

Was that scene filmed in an actual ocean?

No. Because the actual ocean...Not only it would have been just as cold, but like a week before we arrived, somebody got eaten by a shark there! Exactly where we were going to shoot! So they had to, really fast, find this place. And I thought it was going to be warm, but it wasn't. So they had to prepare us physically to go in the water. There was a point [where we had to] stop because the doctor had to check both of us. And of course, the Irish guy was fine, but the Mexican girl had hypothermia! So they had to pull me out immediately and that was it.

Were you as comfortable and relaxed as you seemed in that scene?

I was not comfortable and I was not relaxed at all...I act comfortable, but I was not. And as a matter of fact, I was really nervous, because this is not the one scene that I wanted to do, you know. And it was cold...So at one point, Colin came, started making jokes, and [I said], "I'm not in the mood right now! I'm really upset about this!" I'm barking. And out he comes, butt-naked from the trailer, jumping and doing ballet dance. And I started laughing. It was the most ridiculous thing. Everybody started laughing. And he did it to relax me, because I was really tense. And I have to say that when we were doing the scene, he not once looked down. I sometimes talk to guys that...I am dressed, and they talk to me like this. [does the "wandering eyes" thing] And Colin, for all his reputation...I was like expecting, "What's he going to do? Is he going to try to get too funny here?" Never. Never took his eyes off mine. Completely supportive. I was very surprised by Colin Farrell. I mean, with all the stories you hear... [laughs]

Did we break eye contact with you?

[laughs] Not after I mentioned it!

Was the love scene in the bedroom more taxing than the ocean stuff?

Oh no, it was much warmer. [laughs] It was easier to do the love scene, because he's covering you, so not everybody's looking at your body. There are certain tricks you can do within a contained environment. And it's an actor that I was very comfortable with and I trusted. I don't want to disappoint, but you know, because he's always on top of me, he's covering me most of the time. So you can really have like a tender moment where you're not freezing, worried that the whole team is looking at you...So at least with Colin, I had some sort of trust. He was very protective.

Do you have an upcoming project that you are particularly passionate about?

There is something I am writing, and I don't know how long it's going to take.

What are you writing?

[coyly] I'm writing...a movie that I want to direct. [laughs] It's about classical music.

Having done them all, how do you feel about producing, writing, acting, and directing?

Producing is hell, writing is frustrating, acting is really satisfying, directing is heaven.

Fools Rush Back

You Should Be With a Water Sign!

Your best match is a Cancer, Scorpio, or Pisces Why? You crave intimacy and connection in your relationship And while most guys can't open up enough for you, a Water Sign can Not that you're whole relationship will be soul gazing A Water Sign matches your goofy sense of humor - and desire to help others.

What Sign Should You Date?

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I didn't know those things about him.
Eye contact opens doors
Brings back feelings

Interesting

Hot Tamale You have an intellectual sexiness factor of 61!

You're hot! You've read a lot. You've done a lot, and there's a lot you'd like to try in the future. You've got a sharp, sexy mind, and few inhibitions to restrain you from exploring all the pleasure you can get. You have few hang-ups, and there's not much you don't know about sex. You're open-minded and able to enjoy things that would make a lesser person squeamish. You're an exceptional treat as a lover, appreciated greatly by those who know the differnce. You were probably bored with a few of the people you've been with in your past, feeling like you had to drag them along with you in the sexual adventures you want to have, and probably dumping them for the same reason. It takes a lot to stimulate you; you realize it's not just about bumping uglies. In the end there's gotta be a lot more to it. Still, there is always room for improvement. Before you can graduate into a true sexual genius, there are a few things you've got to learn, to explore, to think through, talk through, and fuck through. A good place to start is in taking a look at the few things you're still a little hesitant to try. Break down you're last few barriers and discover the outer sexual frontiers, and you'll become a master.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on sexiness

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As I Wait

The Northern Lights You scored 84 personality!

Always pretty to look at, your personality is inwardly beautiful.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on personality

Link: The Mirror To Inner Personality Test written by sarahope77 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

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Hades 52% evil #1, 43% evil #2, 42% evil #3, 100% evil #4

Movie: Hercules Hades may be one of the coolest villains, regardless of the fact that he lives in the underworld. In the end, can you blame him for wanting to exact revenge on the other gods and rule Olympus? He spends his time around dead souls, isolated from everyone eles. Yet, somehow he keeps himself composed. He also has the best hair.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on evil #1 You scored higher than 99% on evil #2 You scored higher than 99% on evil #3 You scored higher than 99% on evil #4

Link: The Disney Villain/Villainess Test written by mysticist on OkCupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

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The Common Guy You scored 118 variable 1!

Hey, Congratulations and give yourself a pat on the back, You're mediocre! Wow! Like most people you are more concerned with yourself and what others think of you then with being a good person, but don't feel badly you'll do all right in life, and you are no monster.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on goodness

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Dr. Allison Cameron 40% Eccentricity, 25% Confidence, 65% Kindness

Congratulations, you're Dr. Allison Cameron! You're without a doubt a big sweetheart, though your caring nature can sometimes make life more difficult than it has to be for you. You aren't the most confident person, but you're growing in this regard, and will probably be very sure of yourself in time. You're the loving and beautiful person many people wish they could be, and you are very strong in your moral beliefs, so be proud.

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on Eccentricity You scored higher than 99% on Confidence You scored higher than 99% on Kindness

Link: The House, MD Personality Test written by freedomdegrees on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

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Bumming

Sometimes sharing a cigarette can bring "kilig." It's like you actually kissed. Oh man, I'm being a high-school girl here.