Returning a Precious Shell to the Sea

Not too long ago my husband and one of his best friends had a
tiff. After telling me what had happened, my husband told me to
delete his friend's name from the cell phone speed dial.

I hesitated and told him he was just angry and not to act too
quickly. He insisted he would attempt to do it himself if I
didn't, so I did. That is when I had my MountainWings Moment.

I told him, "It's easy to delete his name from the phone, but be
careful about deleting him from your life. Friends are
blessings from God and even though sometimes they disappoint us,
we should realize they are just human."

From nowhere (I know now it was the Holy Spirit) I said,
"What if God deleted our names from the Book of Life every time
we let Him down? I wouldn't have a chance because I know I fail
to live up to His expectations everyday."

Nothing else was said but I thought about it for a very long
time. We so often let anger cause us to banish people from our
lives for the most trivial reasons, only to regret it, sometimes
after it's too late.

Thankfully my husband and his friend worked things out and their
friendship survived. What I learned most from the experience
was how grateful I am that I serve a loving God who doesn't
delete me just because I let Him down.

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And then again William Blake also said:

It is easier to forgive an enemy, than to forgive a friend.

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Making a fool of myself in her party would always be one thing I regret doing in my life. Yes, I learned from that folly but it came with a price. I lost her. I didn't stop there, I also hurt those close to her.

I wish her a good start in her new life in another country. I wish her well. I know we are not friends anymore, but iu's okay.

Once upon a time, we were.

I've accepted that. I learn from this loss. I brought it all to myself.

I can't say I will miss her, like what most of her friends have been saying lately, coz I've been missing her, really. Not will. I have been missing her.

And I'm sorry for everything I've done.

I cannot change the past, neither can I really find closure in the incident. The only way for me to heal is to do my best to not let it happen again.

Good bye.